I’ve been married for almost 12 years. I have been a Christian since long before I met my husband. In 2003, I began a journey down the road of infertility. I had an ectopic pregnancy. Then in 2004, I had 3 miscarriages (Jan, Mar, Aug). This was when my depression began. Many ups and downs. The questions as to why. Sleeping too much, not going to work, not doing the housework anymore, etc. I tried to cling to my faith, and I still felt God speaking to me. “Adopt!” My husband wasn’t on the same page. This began the struggles in our marriage. In 2006, I had 5 different jobs, and continued to go downhill in depression. In 2007, I had yet another miscarriage. By the time 2008 rolled around, I was done. I won’t go into details, but my husband and I separated, and I moved 3 hours away for about 5 months. In Jan 2009, I then came back to town to work on putting the pieces back together. I moved back into the house in late 2009. We still struggle almost daily, but we are trying. Through all of this my faith has wavered and, quite frankly, almost disappeared completely. I am writing this blog because I feel that God is leading me to get some of my experiences out to help others who maybe have experienced or are experiencing some of the same things that I’ve experienced. I hope you enjoy this blog as much as I think I am going to enjoy writing it!